For the absolute longest time, I was certain that I was unworthy and undeserving- of many things:
I believed I was the exception, that serious complications from an eating disorder happened to others, not to me. That others deserved recovery, not me.
Being consumed with my inner critic and eating disorder, I fully believed that my worth was based solely on my actions and others’ opinions of me. Yet, it was always unfairly graded and weighed.
Positive that the pleasant compliments were only said to be polite, and maybe even out of pity, they held no truth to them. Yet, when someone was critical or demeaning, I held those comments as gospel and put my worth in my imperfections and short comings.
By listening to my inner critic and falling for the lie of being unworthy and undeserving, I was practically saying that I held no worth in who I am.
I would never say this to another person, but yet I found it acceptable to refer to myself as this.
It has taken many, many years, but I am not the exception.
Just like how my body won’t survive on carrot sticks because I want it to.
My worth isn’t based on my short comings because I think that is all I deserve.
In a society that thrives on perfection and believes asking for help is a weakness, we become fake to those around us.
It has become taboo to talk about struggles, we portray only the very best side of our life, feeding into the belief that we can’t measure up.
I am a huge advocate for sharing our stories. It is so easy to get caught up with our faults and mistakes and make our identity in them, but yet, I want to hear who you are.
I don’t care about the weather, your car or your job. We ALL have SOMETHING and I want to hear it. What you’ve been through, how far you’ve come, what you learned, and how it made you, you.
So instead of only showing the best side of yourself – be real.
Own your story, it is yours to tell and nobody has the power or authority to belittle it for how far you have come.
Be unapologetically you.
You are worthy of it.
I am worthy of it.
We deserve so much more.