Hey all, it has been a while. So much has and hasn’t happened simultaneously.
Work may be the death of me, it is challenging and discouraging the majority of the time, with no break in sight.
Some slight guy issues, but oh well.
I think I am finally coming to terms with who I am, and am working to not only accept that, but embrace it.
I am almost 24 years old. Tonight my New Years plan is to get dinner out of the oven in ~20 minutes, curl up with my heated blanket and continue to read. I am also not ashamed of that. I joke and laugh that I am an old woman in a 20-something year old body, but it is the truth. Since I moved to Pennsylvania I have gone to only a handful of parties, they have included coworkers, who I am friends with.
I shouldn’t have to make excuses to not go out. “I have a headache”, “I’m just super exhausted.”, “Sorry, Ella has been throwing up.” I shouldn’t have to apologize or make excuses to back my decisions. I am an introvert, I am ok with that. I am not ashamed of the fact that I do not want to stay up until after midnight, with people I don’t know to have to drive home through, who knows how many traffic stops. That isn’t my cup of tea.
I am ok with the fact that I don’t want to go out and socialize. I enjoy my me time to work out, read, do what I want.