Hatred and Eating Disorders

Do you know what it is like to hate somebody. Not just hate, but loathe, you can’t even look at them without feeling rage well up.

You can’t help the criticizing thoughts, you hate her so much. She is a bitch, a gross, fat, nasty bitch. She constantly screws stuff up and being around her just annoys the piss out of me. You mentally pull her apart, she is fat, her face is breaking out, her thighs are touching. Her face is too round, she doesn’t have abs.

You see her laughing and smiling, but focus in on her muffin tops.

Her inadequacies are all you see when you look at her, and how she could and should be better.

There are those people out there who do tolerate her, maybe even like her. You just can’t wrap your head around it though, she doesn’t deserve their affection, let alone their attention.

Then you pass her, in the house, at work, in the bathroom, in the mirror.

You can’t escape her, or the hatred.

For the one you hate is yourself.

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